Farewell

Never easy no matter what the circumstances surrounding them or how crazy the situation is.

Tonight I said goodbye to a friend that has known me forever, she knows me backwards, each and every expression on my face, the different tones in my voice and my fake laugh. This friend of mine has also known my situation the longest, she knew way back when how things were, how the people in my life were and the antics they got up to. She knows my heartaches, my heartbreaks, my story and my bad habits. Six years of a bond closer than blood.

All along she has wanted to help me but unable, she has had her own horrors, her own heartbreaks and torments. This year I have held her as she has cried and she I, together it has been rivers.

Tonight was different to how it was when we said bye to each other last year. It was different because of the year and the knowledge within our hearts. Her words “I am not sad, I am so glad and relieved that you are getting out of that situation, that you are going to a better place and that you can put it all behind you. I am so sad you are going but glad”

Although my heart aches with the knowledge that I won’t be seeing her for a very long time (if all goes to plan) I know she and I will be eternal no matter what comes our way, what life throws at us. Our friendship is thicker than blood.

Saying bye to those you love is never easy, for me it is never goodbye, always just bye. Till we meet again.