Satisfaction is more of an ideal than a simple state of being. The more that I think about it, the more I wonder if perhaps never being truly satisfied is merely another ugly aspect of human nature that we all prefer to ignore. Or, maybe, is never being satisfied a good thing? Does it force us to strive for more, to always keep looking towards the sky? I suppose it’s a double edged sword, really. Our inherent lack of satisfaction coerces us to always search for something more, but it also has the capability to blind us to something wonderful that is standing right in our vicinity.
Perhaps I am looking too much into my own experience, but considering that my experience is the only way that I can perceive the world I suppose that I cannot be too far off from whatever the truth may be. While I wish that I could say that I find myself to be satisfied with all aspects of my life, I know that it is simply not the truth. I am constantly feeling as if something is missing, as if there is something more out there which I just haven’t managed to find for myself yet. I do not think that I am the only person that has this feeling lingering in his or her chest. I think that it is possible to be satisfied with certain part if your life (e.g. your relationships, your work, your schooling, et cetera), but will you, can you be satisfied with everything?
I would suppose that, if things go as planned, a point comes in one’s life where all of the important things (whatever one deems to be important, anyway) are working out well, they are all fulfilled and then all the little disappointments do not seem so upsetting. Maybe you have an excellent spouse and the family you’ve always wanted, or perhaps your career is excelling at such a fantastic rate that you cannot help but feel proud of yourself. Maybe you believe that you are on your way to living a full rich life and so everything else, all of the little annoyances that ate away at you before just… don’t matter.
Is that satisfaction? Being happy with everything else? Is it contentment? Are satisfaction and contentment essentially the same, just a different amount of syllables? Will I ever be satisfied? content? or will I always be looking for something different, always something better? I have yet to reach a point in my life where better meant nothing, did not exist, but I’m sure that it’s possible.
I just wonder if I will recognize satisfaction when it finally comes knocking on my door.
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i feel that you will know satisfaction, and contentment when it happens and until you reach that point its merely an illusive concept. I also believe that it is not necessarily a permanent thing, but more of something that comes and goes. For me, I have been satisfied/content with my life, but something beyond my control changes, and everything is disrupted and have to start the process all over again.
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